thoughts

is it pathetic to...

- cry over someone whom you'd thought to spend your life with bcos of his ignorance?

- always have him played continuously in ur mind when he's not really were thinking of u?

- listen to love songs whenever u were thinking of him?

- feel super happy when u got a message from him tho it was a plain "Hi"?

- read his messages in your phone, over and over again, and then smiling while you're at it?

- think there's something between us, when most of the time it really was nothing?

- said u moved on but never actually?

- said you're not in love when you're actually hopelessly in love?

- love someone even if you know he's not really available?

- always thinking about what he's doing right now, whether he's thinking of you?

- do things you never do/like just to impress him?

- forgive him easily even how jerk he had been to u?

it still sound so pathetic to me, but u cant helped being so in love kan?

i put up the daisies picture is because i feel like smiling and calm just by looking at it. i even dreamed of having a white daisies on the first date, in my wedding and to have it everywhere in my garden. heaven there. i can imagine myself drinking tea in my garden full of blossom flowers, listening to bird's chirps and growing old with my husband. i'll wait for that moment.

haha, why am i saying this? ttyl